in the shadow ( of what could have been )
( music/lyrics: n.dru )

i don't know what you mean, or what you expect from me
i don't know, and i don't care
i just cannot see, sometimes i can barely breathe
but i'm too cold, too cold now to care

there was a time when things were different
all shattered in stained glass fragments
strewn across the frozen concrete
reminders of a life incomplete
picked up by the hands of children
unaware of what it had been
cut right through their innocent skin
scarring yet so indifferent

i can't hear what you say, it doesn't matter anyway
your words seem so empty, to me anyhow
there's nothing that i can do, no way i can feel like you
i'm too distant, too distant now

it didn't have to end up this way
polarized and pushed all away
like a pair of former lovers
who learned one day to hate each other
longing just to be together
knowing that their minds will never
let them feel that way again
but still they try and lie and pretend

i know what you must think, i feel myself begin to sink
into your thoughts, into your eyes
i wish that i could escape, i wish that i could break away
for one more day, for one more try

but now i'm locked inside this prison
shackles where the hope had once been
iron bars and cold stone walls
are all that's left of what we called
inspiration and the dreams of
boys and girls and what we once loved
torn away, handcuffed, arrested
kept awake until we confessed it

i can't help this feeling
something's watching over me
i can't help believing
this isn't what i was meant to be
i can't stop from thinking
i want to start it all again
i can't stop from living
in the shadow of what could have been

n.dru - vocals, synths, drums
jØhn - guitar

© 2005 n.dru/doomsday virus all rights reserved

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